THE NEW LEAF IS FeiRCE

you'll write the title
i'll write the chapters
- lyrics from the Story

so i have been thinking of something to write about. in fact that is all i think of, am i wasting my time? this is all i do. all i know- not exactly.

so the temperature dropped to 9.6 degrees yesterday, and it is the coldest as said. 6.3 back in the 90's. however the temperature is expected to fall later this part of the month. actually i can already feel it right now. brr-

then it dawned me, maybe I'll write something about my sister, the one im not in good terms with. and my mom, whom... you see, a lot of family problems start to rise when you start noticing everything. that is why it is always better not to care. but not in my case, because if i won't care, then there'll be nothing to think about. and nothing will change, since nobody cares now!

it was almost a week since i smoked. well, i cannot promise to quit. because i know i break promises- i do not like fooling myself. however, in my "conversation" with _ well, i was thinking of making him a reason for quitting. but then, when "we" end , i know that would end the quitting. one thing i try to avoid these days is doing things for other people. i want everything for myself. haha-

now, let me talk about my "guy". well, im liking him because at some point i know we have a lot of similarities. like? i really can't think of anything. and i know he does a lot of thinking too. i know that he too is unsure and he is wise enough to keep his emotions safe. i know he likes me and that he won't be easy to forget. having said that, i did also wish to be that girl, or maybe i am starting to be it. let me explain further: i have not felt that" regret" from "that" moment on, unlike that one i had with abso. well, i do not like comparing because that would be totally praising my guy. maybe it will come to that point kyps, maybe not. because i know we're still playing safe- or me only. and maybe if this ends suddenly i would surely delete this post.

laura, i know you love me, but maybe this is me. i never like hoping. since it has been many times when i was fooled. that is why i always want to do things my way. since everything is flowing in my direction. harrr- yes, i too have those romantic scenes playing on my mind like all those who never loved. but you see, i want to slap myself off these dreams, i do not like waiting for a man who im not even sure of his existence,. and look! i have one. damn pain and heartaches! why am i even telling you this! why do i even care if you'll feel bad or not - oh well, you know you're my dear friendSS. i know you got that. i know its ok with khariz. isn't it a sign that me not being able to tell you personally is because i am serious? not fooling around, no more stupid stories, and dramas, no more of those!!!

HAHA-well.

Samantha: I'm a trisexual. I'll try anything once.
Sex and the City

Samantha: Last night I could not stop thinking about a Big Mac. I finally had to get dressed, go out and pick up a guy.
Sex and the City

Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.
Sex and the City

Carrie: Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with them.
Sex and the City