THE HUNDRED THINGS

-this photo was taken at kypler's bday

i sat over the cold tables to get a better look at everything. I'd rather do that than allowing everything be obstructed by that stupid bent head in front of me. after that, i watched comfortably for the whole two hours except for the occasional movement of that head. we were watching Will Smith's "Pursuit to Happyness"(even the computer wants to correct the spelling) then. it is where i have stolen some of these lines:

"i still remember that moment, they all look so happy to me. why couldn't i be like that."
- Chris Gardner said when he was looking around him.
marvelling the smile in everyone's face.

"Don't ever let somebody tell you you can't do it, not even me."
- Chris Gardner to his son.

i do not know what is in this movie that could touch everyone. maybe it is just the fact that Chris Gardner was no different from all of us. we all have dreams- great ones that sometimes, are hard to accomplish. the thing with him is- he just did it. at all costs. i do not want to praise him more- but at some point he made me believe that our fate is not really written. we mold it on our own. but how do we know that when sometimes as if a greater force is hitting us with a lot of misfortunes, and for Gardner- he passed all them.

here is where i ask myself all the questions i want answered. but what do i know. grr-

i hate bothering myself with all this. let's just enjoy life while we have it. and prepare ourselves while we are not yet prepared. and maybe there will be a point where i would look back into my life and reminisce. then laurice and the others came up to an idea of: doing the things you want before you turn 20. so here's the list:

1. go to all the different kinds of bars
2. overnight in white-sand beaches!
3. kiss a guy in the rain
4. have a one-day boyfriend
...

then i read Marie's Profile where she posted a hundred things she would want to do. here's mine, i hope i'd be able to do them all before i die. but i'll first start with the TEN.

1. quit my bad habits
2. write a book
3. have sex
4. kiss in the rain
5. adopt a child
6. help someone
7. read great books and learn from them
8. become a teacher
9. love
10. toughen up