SEEKING BOTTLED alive BUTTERFLIES

hi. since this blog is my new bestfriend i'm going to tell the day's "happenings". well, i miss my hate posts-but i decided to eradicate them completely because it costs a lot. hate posts must be banished sinceit hurts other people. but i will try not to hate today.
however, this morning, i saw cynics, bastards, criminals- too rude to call them those but well i can't say names. i am trully sorry for that.

well, this morning, my sitmate, who is a girl and i do not like her already, rolled her eyes-at me? i do not even know her!!! well maybe she was one of those "enemies" of mine. still i smiled at her

last November one, in celebration of all saints day, my family and i went to visit my grandfather, and grandmother, then we went to my lolo's house and we ate lunch there. since most of my relatives are converted vegetarians- the food was healthy: veggie salads, lots of them and the only meat in the table was !!! chicken. i really like how my aunts and cousins prepare the food. you know, they have the passion for that. i hope you see that i also have a share in the work, like, uh mm-slicing? merely watching and others.

we also have those superstitions that i would not elaborate since i am not a fan of that. well, i think some of it are true. and something bothers me, i always see a butterfly, moth of the same shape. i saw those before my lolo died. creepy- am i going to die or there are just lots of butterflies or moths alive these days. it makes me so sad to remember my grandfather- because again i feel the urge of giving life but having no power to do it. that sucks right? well im doing good right now. i do.

CURRENTLY, i am reading Sionil's "sin". and i am reading four books. like duh how weird could i get? since life is not that fun anymore and classes are easy? and classmates are- well, their - well. i do not like to talk about them in my blog.

hey! my big crush on someone is fading! because i am hating men again for hurting lots of people, and i cannot think of the possibility of me falling for a girl because that is -hideous. i am just happy that now i am getting what i want. who doesn't want that for me-them.