Episodes: On Emotional Breakdowns

A lot of things have been happening lately. Rather, I guess my problems are just coming like unwelcome guests. I just have to entertain them. In the past days, I want to close all the doors and windows, turn off the lights and wish that nobody knew of my existence so that I can disappear for a while. I want to be like the animals who hibernate or like the snake who will sheds off with a new skin. For human beings, this is not the case. For adults, you just cannot stop with all the daily living expenses that drips by the second. What should I do now?

I was at a trance in the past days. Lost and defeated in my mind while everyone seems to be climbing up the ladder of victory and success. It was a quicksand that was slowly eating me up. I am so tempted to breakdown. I have to pay this. My ex seems so happy to have found the love of his life. Everyone seems to have found their own soulmates. It was consuming my thoughts. Thank goodness for all the external factors in my life. These are friends and family who bug me to meet them. These are people who I am obliged to talk to. These are things I just have to do even if one task takes hours. Let me include the gym membership that I enrolled in just because I feel like it at that time. This episode lasted for a week.

Right now, I feel fine. I realized it was just a phase. It was a chapter I have to read. It was a song I cannot skip because I am not in spotify premium. This day, I feel like I can do everything. I am ready. 

From this, I learned that depression is real. But I hope the others will try to endure. I hope they will keep on moving. I hope everyone who feels depression will know that it is just a phase. That sadness will not last forever. Just endure. Gather all your strength and courage with the maximum effort.