Here we are in the middle of chaos. The chaos of the mind and the heart. The earth fell silent to cage us and not allow any movement. We take a sit and think- what will we do now?
My favorite part of quarantine life is that I have time to think about issues that I have been escaping from the longest time. What do I really want to do now?
Now is a word that pertains to the present. It is where we are. We have all these goals, regrets and other thoughts about the past and the future. There are a lot of things that we want to change and a lot more that we want to accomplish. With all the time that we have right now, we just have to decide what will we do now?
Before this virus outbreak, decisions are usually based on priorities. Each aspect of our lives are categorized and ranked based on importance. When asked the question- what will we do now, we just pick something 1st in the rank. Today, everything you do is based in what you want.
As for me, I pondered on my usual busy schedule. When I want to make myself guilty, I will watch a movie and blame myself for lack of self control. I usually hate myself for doing everything and it will always seem like I am lacking something. Today, I just woke up, watched a lot of movies and tried to read. I am having the time of my life. I still have problems but I choose not to think about it for now. I never thought I will be this content in just having food to eat and everything I need.
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