POETRY FOR YOU

hi. it has taken time for me to realize that I am, empty, dull, plain, name it. its like i have to ask myself what i have been living for. and i have finding reasons behind reason and everything leads to me, being empty. i went out with people yesterday. and i thought of regretting going there. well, there are a lot of things that i have learned from it.

1. not all people are like me, self-proclaimed-tough.
2. things do not change, even if you think they do. in the end you'll know what you really want.
3. everything undergoes a process ( thanks auntie mary for your words of wisdom). one cannot be better in a flash

4. love is everything, for some.
5. we're all still young to deal with way-great burdens, like love.(you know yourself , dear friend)
6. the world will never stop even if we do. everything goes on, even if you stop it. that's a fact so live with it.
7. live what you learn (a line from a dear elem. teacher: faithfulyn canlas)


*you guys, made me see what this is all about. i thank you. but i cannot even show a part of me that is that sensitive- i am empty (why-oh-why) but do not ever forget to love yourself- because even if you think that you don't need a helping hand, do not forget to have yourself, as a wall to help you stand. that is what i have seen. one has to love oneself to be able to survive harsh truths.

i ended yesterday, lying to my mom, lying to myself, watching t.v., and writing this for YOU.

thorns from your body
thorns penetrating me.
been eating this kind of pain
been suckling this truth.

and though i cannot paint a picture
how can i tell you
if all that i know
are the words: i love you; you're my world

and i wrote this for me: I'd build a fence around me, without any gate or any entry.
see, fears do not indicate weakness. ponder on that.
*IM LOVING MY GROUPMATES: take care you all

HIM

:confusing
if i said I'll never fall in love again, why do i feel this way? now that you seem to be the perfect person. if someone can understand that i am among those who have been searching for something relevant. how should i feel upon realizing that he is within my reach. how should i tell myself that i have to stop because i knew how it felt to be heart broken. nothing lasts forever, i know. i am the kind who wants every good thing to last forever.

"and like a dry leaf stranded at one spot after the rain, it would not be easy to be blown away"

.i am sorry if i had to be stupid with all this thoughts. but my heart can no longer take more pain. because if i put myself in the shoes of a dry leaf, then what will i be?-nothing. i cannot push myself to be the numbest person in this world, but if we have to be stones to feel humanity in our veins, why not? if we have to be so cold to those around us, why not? -because we cannot give every piece of our self when everybody is taking part of it. you see, crying , screaming never erased pain. it is so difficult when pain hits- it seem to linger. now, if there is still something we can do to escape the cruel fate of being in pain, why not cling to it?
RIGHT?

*thanks jo, for being there. the guy i told you bwt is not in this one

TONIGHT

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a
million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to
feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to
come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
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About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to
come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to
come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

LOVE DOES NOT EXIST; we're just forced to believe it does

i had this philosophy teacher who talks a lot about LOVE. i usually think, what the he** is he thinking? i mean, the topic is not actually overused but it is so complicated that people should not talk about it, because no one can define LOVE.

"corny"- that defines it. the fact that it is difficult to differentiate it from all the things it is associated with, how come people still claim they know it??? but you see- it is so easy to say that we are in love. (i am not talking about opposite sex Love only) right ? but it was never easy to prove it. and how many times have we seen people cry because of love? if love is what they say it is , then why do some suffer from it? i speak for those who stay stupid for this. and you know yourselves.- myself included maybe. i just wish that nobody hurts again?

still despite of my great repulsion from the word i have my own definition of it:

; the first sunlight after a storm
;drying the skin after bathing
; not chocolates; not flowers; not diamond rings; not happy endings
; craving, though hurting
; wanting,
;constantly

i know that love does exist. i hope nobody says it, without really meaning it...

HEATH LEDGER

who will disagree if i would say that Heath Ledger is among the best actors of today's age. he absolutely showed a compelling performance in all the movies that he did. though i thought i would never be a fan of this icon, i thought otherwise after watching Batman; Dark Knight. he was sooo- good. viewers can say that upon watching this movie.

like Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) , Joker was played in an exemplary way that we could actually feel that the character can exist in real life. too much of reality was smashed in this movie. seems like the psychotic character of Heath Ledger revealed so many things in real life. it was delivered it perfectly. i do not know how i can tell anyone reading this to watch Dark Knight. WATCH IT.

most of the appalling scenes in the movie are those where Ledger was found. i really admire this one. it is so sad that he died.