Let me talk about how I feel.
First, it was disbelief. There are so many idioms to describe how you dropped me just like that. You tell me how bad I treat you. With all that is happening right now, I will choose not to hate you. I hope you are happy.
Second, Anger and Depression. These emotions attack me interchangeably. I wonder why my thoughts go to you during this time. It does not mean I want you back but losing you was a total change of direction of all my plans. So many good things happened to me during the transition. From an outside perspective the good things outweigh the hurt but sometimes the hurt is overwhelming.
Third, acceptance. I know you no longer love me and I cannot force it on you to love me back. If I can talk to you I want to thank you. Thank you for leaving me. Thank you for letting me go. Our relationship was toxic and we tried. Or maybe you are just one giant ass of a fuck boy who cheats their way out of a relationship. Let us just say I have an attitude problem to not bother explaining to the world why you have to cancel a wedding that I prepared for months. But seriously thank you for letting me avoid the biggest mistake of my life. You are a weak piece of shit that had to go away. I have a right to be angry right?
They say forgiveness is an ideal gift to those who hurt you. I forgave you already.
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