Today, I am very sad. I just saw a picture that says it all. It was like a summary of a very long speech and the point of view is read with just a glance. No matter how hard I try to flip it, reality is staring at my face. You are no longer mine. 

It was my fault. I drove away a great man. I hope she treats you better than I did. Though I cannot say it now, I know that I am so happy for you. I rest my case fighting for us. Someone already came to take my throne. It is so painful but I guess I just failed.

I was going to promise you so many things. It was supposed to be a lifetime of struggles and victories. Us, together, we were to face all the odds. 

These past months, my thoughts were on working on myself and how to be better for you. I did not realize how late it is for me. Like all aspects in my life, I am always late. Right now, I do not know how to react or what to do. I cannot even sleep. My mind is so awake. She is so pretty. You did it right. Remember? I told you before that if you replace she should be more beautiful. Well, she is. She looks like a happier person though. Unlike me. 

I do not wish to delve into self pity knowing you no longer love me. Its just that I do not know what to do next. But I am figuring it all out. You see, I quit planning so many things in my life. There was a wedding, where to live, how to finish school and how to raise children. It is all gone now. At first, I was so lost. But I cannot blame anyone. This is all on me.