How to Commit Suicide

Times are difficult and life is not getting easier. 

I know, it is so tempting to just end it all but where is the thrill in that? We all die, so if you are thinking of killing yourself, you might want to just wait the universe do it.

You might be in the worst possible situation that any human being can have. Trust me, every person has this feeling of wanting so bad to just disappear. I have thought of ways to kill myself but I want a way that is painless and fast. 

Believe me, there are so many ways to commit a suicide. These are grand ways to let everyone recognize that you were in so much pain you just had to do it. I will tell you the different ways that I did it. 

1. Volunteer yourself to do something you have absolutely no idea about and learn in the process. You are thinking of dying right? So looking stupid or feeling shame won't matter at this point. I died here. The hermit in me died here. She was gone as soon as I said I volunteer to join that contest, that debate team, that public speaking stint and a lot more. She hated it so much she collapsed, disappeared and died I guess.

2. Be someone you are not. When you were born, people around you planted this idea that you are this kind of person. As you go along life, you develop habits and characteristics that coincide with your environment. You found ways to fit in and this has been the focus until now. Now you want to die. You can die and be the person you want- not in another life but this life. I always wanted that "aura" of confident beautiful rich girls. Or I think they call them "girl boss" now. I just woke up and acted like it. Again, I was thinking of dying, so I don't care if you judge me for speaking out, for dressing up, for putting red lipstick and for thinking of establishing so many businesses and for telling everyone that I want to become a millionaire. 

3. You have made bad decisions before arriving at this point in your life which led you to the decision to just kill yourself. Remember some countries that killed babies just because of the population or that the gender does not match their nation's goals? Kill those baby in you- not actual baby if you have one but that part of you that led you here. That part of you that you nurtured for so long that made you weak and defenseless. Your pain is real and there is nothing that can end it right now. You can pretend to be cool about it by just getting out of bed and do little things one at a time. Divert your thoughts and set a timer to cry for just 15 minutes a day and then try to forget again. 

I hope this helped.