PAINS

We cannot take back the time we have given away to people who seem not to know its worth. And even if we say that we learn from that experience and shall choose the right person next time, we know that we are still waiting for someone to come back.

Despite that impossibility we wait for a miracle, either for things to be the same again or that things will get better. But waiting is a very tedious because it might take a very long time before what you pray for will be answered. One thing is for sure, things will get better.

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I am just tired of waiting, hoping and over thinking things. I realized, it was never meant to be. I am sorry to the people whom I disturbed but I believe that it is among the roles you play as a friend. I shall forever be in debt to your time and your advices. I must also be thankful to this person who for unknown reasons make me happy everytime, your presence is just unbelievably heartwarming, obviously the reason that others would fall at you feet. And to you who thought I am that shallow get over yourself.

For four days I drank my pains away and my breath tastes like cigar. I am sober now. Thank you. I have realized that there are more from life that what is seen by the naked eye. They are the people who catch you when you fall, because the cause of the fall did not even do anything. It is a blessing to know the real people and your real self. These things emerge at times when everything is blurred and hazy.

Indeed. during these times all I can do is pray for the Father to guide me to the right path and to give me strength and wisdom so that I may do well in my decisions.