EMPLOYMENT AND THE ISSUE BEHIND IT

EMPLOYMENT
After college, every graduate is expected to get out of the house and look for a job. In some cases, reviewing for licensure exams comes before the painful process. I say painful because this process includes making a resume that has or does not have a lot in it. In my case, I was dropped to manage a family business that seemed to require me every bit of my time. So, I indulged because I have nothing else to do. And my face slammed in real-life-situation because I have to do good because my mother employs a number of people, who have mouths to feed. Of course, I the soft-hearted being realized that I must do this for them but I failed to note that this means non-stop working hours. The only leisure-time I was given was for beers and small-senseless-drunk talks with my friends. This led to late-night trips to my mother’s house and late-waking hours. It is devastating ,of course, that behind my noble aspirations of making myself a purpose-driven entrepreneur I am stuck in the dissatisfaction of what I currently have. So, what do I do?
AND
I came up with a few plans to balance my lifestyle and to stay focused on my goals (I do not even have goals).
-enrolled myself to a gym class for a month
-bought a couple of magazines about health awareness (eg. Yoga, exercise and self awareness)
-slept early
-did some beauty regimens to improve self-esteem (I slathered my skin with moisturizers, bought make-up thingies, among others)
THE
My goal in life used to be simple- to be filthy rich. Then I realized that it doesn’t really matter. Its true, having a lot of money is meaningless when you start to lose your attachments to your loved ones and you will be left feeling empty. I felt that when I saw surprised faces when I attend family events (I seldom show up). I predicted that I will be one crazy bitch when I go on working and working without knowing the reason behind it. I have said that my mother is employing a lot of people. Ours is not a famous company. It does not have a name. My mother is creating jobs out of nothing- I am just proud of her. In my stay in the store, I have met a few people, who are just like my mother- they just cannot stop because people would stop making a living too. It is not a burden but a purpose, other than feeding our own mouths. I wish there are other people like them. I hope I will grow and be like them.
ISSUE
I learned about the difference between the mindset of a family person and a single person. A family person plans carefully about this and that, while someone who is single does not actually care about anything. I know my speculations do not apply to everyone. There are contributory factors that affect the way we see things such as, family background, educational attainment, social status, among others. As for me, I am torn between thinking like a brat and adjusting this way of thinking. I know that it feels so good to indulge in the comforts of our parents resources, while swallowing our pride and  deny the expectations of the society to be self-reliant. Indeed, it is scary to cross that line. It is mind-wrecking to face an uncertain future.
BEHIND
What if?
a. we dive in the sea of sharks, who knows we might survive?
b. we scream for help? Hide under our mother’s skirts?
c. find a dying old man and marry him?
d. others?
IT
Success, as they always say, is in our own hands.
We are all fighters dropped in an arena- kill all and survive
The game is outsourcing the other
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