hmm

hmmm. hi. i am in my sister's place right now. doing nothing. and expecting that something will change.

my plans for my stay would be like exhausting all the excess emotions that i do feel. since last night, i did some things i regret. i also do not want the person i am turning into. this is just not me. well, maybe there are a lot of reasons why i do these things. still, i am very much aware that there are these things that lie in front of me waiting to be done. but i refuse to face you all. this is so dramatic. so my plans actualy include: watching the sunset. swimming in the beach and the like


when i o back to the real world, i have 10 promises to myself.
1. don't smoke
2. minimize alcohol consumption
3. don't say bad words
4. study every night
5. no more over criticizing
6. wake up early
7. do your homework
8. go to mass
9. be happy, smile always
10. optimism please...

maybe, this is my way of dealing with these things. i just hope that i would fulfill them all. and with that i pray that some divine power will help me in getting over everything. i will have myself back. and with that everything must follow. my dreams shall wake up again. and i will want to live life again.