LOSING

i felt like a great tidal wave came over me very slowly. and a need to react attacked me. i need to scream, to cry, to do something. my friends failed- failing is a shame and we all know that. with that failing is painful.

it was so sad. i want to be angry because... they failed. so i cried. and it was sad that even if you'd see people who make you happy, that overwhelming sadness just won't go away. or that nobody on this planet would take that sadness away. so i cried na lang. because i have to let it out. but i was not so successful at that. because it was not my burden to bear. and i know that if i had been in that situation that would not be how I'll deal with it. i know that I'd rather revel silence to embrace peace. because i know then that i could think properly with everything... but not all people are like me. and i cannot go back to being demanding, manipulative and dominating.

sadly, they are in the world where people play the roles of gods and goddesses even if they're not. but that is the way it is even in the real world. where power has its own definition. but the real world is subjective either we choose to believe or not. maybe that is just the wa i is.

ate ria, a dear friend, told me "other men's crosses are not my crosses. so yes. i must symphatize but my world has a lot in it now. and I'm no darna. haha

darna is a Philippine superhero