when you have to fake a smile
and you are no fake, how do you do it?
when you have to walk the walk and talk the talk- would you do it.
then you have to be nearly naked. in front of everybody and the lights come from the flashes of numerous cameras.
who wouldn't like it when you're like the center of the universe? even in just a moment. but would you give in? if in the condition that you become a subject, a specimen, a mere object of lust (duh- im beautiful) and entertainment- would you?
i won't. don't expect me to satisfy you whims. because i don't like all of you.
bacause you can't repay this. whatever you do.
THE FUN PART: i know there's someone out there for me. and t(he)y'll stay there whatever happens. even if i won't walk the walk; or talk the talk.
so there was that bitch girl under the category CHEAP. so do not expect me to compete with her. them. since your eyes can't deceive you. and facts are facts.
then there was those sandals that dreaded me. i don't walk those things. but i did.
THE OTHER THING:
when the sun rises. majestic and breath taking. but you cannot savor it forever because it sets too. and then you'd meet all the people. and you'll learn to love them. but you are too afraid that either you or him would leave. you don't completely understand yourself. because you ask why sunrise or sunset no longer matter. why is it that life itself is already satisfying. and there's no more need to spice things up with drama when everything is already sweet.
then you'd remember the line- too good to be true. then you'd doubt things and you'd back off. but you won't go. you'd stay because you want to. then like those fireworks a million "what ifs" booms in the sky. right in front of you, as if taunting you. because it knows that you actually doubt yourself. and even if you say you would want to believe, you know that you're not yet starting to believe. you know that you just say it. you know that you are lying when you said you did not really like it. and you were not serious about it and you just let things be. you know that since then you have already drowned in this thing. and you know its worth drowning again but you won't do it. because you do not believe in happy endings because you watched a lot of drama movies in your life. but you also know that it can end happily but again you know that things would always go wrong.
you wanted to cry so hard right? yes. you would cry for this. you would wait. you would. wouldn't you? and even if they doubt and even if ... you would believe in it. you ask. you are too scared of falling. because you read in some book that its not really that aftermath of the fall. when you're already broken. no. that's not it. it is when you are helplessly flailing your arms. grabbing the air to save you. but what if he would reach out his hand? you know that there is a possibility that he would and you know that ... but what if.
i do not know what is wrong with you. i do not understand why you want so much assurances to prove these things. look at yourself. you just know that you're good and you just know that. you are the most selfish living being in this planet because of your super high self-esteem and pride. you try to banish your flaws but you know they won't go. and they'll stay. just enjoy the moment babe. because this thing is not over yet. worry when it does
and you are no fake, how do you do it?
when you have to walk the walk and talk the talk- would you do it.
then you have to be nearly naked. in front of everybody and the lights come from the flashes of numerous cameras.
who wouldn't like it when you're like the center of the universe? even in just a moment. but would you give in? if in the condition that you become a subject, a specimen, a mere object of lust (duh- im beautiful) and entertainment- would you?
i won't. don't expect me to satisfy you whims. because i don't like all of you.
bacause you can't repay this. whatever you do.
THE FUN PART: i know there's someone out there for me. and t(he)y'll stay there whatever happens. even if i won't walk the walk; or talk the talk.
so there was that bitch girl under the category CHEAP. so do not expect me to compete with her. them. since your eyes can't deceive you. and facts are facts.
then there was those sandals that dreaded me. i don't walk those things. but i did.
THE OTHER THING:
when the sun rises. majestic and breath taking. but you cannot savor it forever because it sets too. and then you'd meet all the people. and you'll learn to love them. but you are too afraid that either you or him would leave. you don't completely understand yourself. because you ask why sunrise or sunset no longer matter. why is it that life itself is already satisfying. and there's no more need to spice things up with drama when everything is already sweet.
then you'd remember the line- too good to be true. then you'd doubt things and you'd back off. but you won't go. you'd stay because you want to. then like those fireworks a million "what ifs" booms in the sky. right in front of you, as if taunting you. because it knows that you actually doubt yourself. and even if you say you would want to believe, you know that you're not yet starting to believe. you know that you just say it. you know that you are lying when you said you did not really like it. and you were not serious about it and you just let things be. you know that since then you have already drowned in this thing. and you know its worth drowning again but you won't do it. because you do not believe in happy endings because you watched a lot of drama movies in your life. but you also know that it can end happily but again you know that things would always go wrong.
you wanted to cry so hard right? yes. you would cry for this. you would wait. you would. wouldn't you? and even if they doubt and even if ... you would believe in it. you ask. you are too scared of falling. because you read in some book that its not really that aftermath of the fall. when you're already broken. no. that's not it. it is when you are helplessly flailing your arms. grabbing the air to save you. but what if he would reach out his hand? you know that there is a possibility that he would and you know that ... but what if.
i do not know what is wrong with you. i do not understand why you want so much assurances to prove these things. look at yourself. you just know that you're good and you just know that. you are the most selfish living being in this planet because of your super high self-esteem and pride. you try to banish your flaws but you know they won't go. and they'll stay. just enjoy the moment babe. because this thing is not over yet. worry when it does
2 comments:
Hi,
What do you mean by all of this?
I am planning to stay in Circon for my palawan trip but what you shared just do not make sense.
Please advise.
Sorry, I write in a way that the real sense is hidden. Maybe that part was embarrassing for me. Actually it is.
Anyway, Circon inn is a great place. It is near the market and you can take a few minutes of tricycle ride to the beach. It is also walking distance to some nearby shops-very accessible.
Also, I remember going to a wine shop owned by a German, if you plan to drink some wine in the hotel.
Also try the sidewalk vendors, I remember buying dried seahorse and some really great shells. They also sell "queen crab shells."
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