MY LIFE

i feel like talking about myself:

hi, im arlene, well usually i lie about my name because i feel that it is sacred. a lot of people might have the same name, but who cares, we're all different in our own ways. though i wish i could meet all the ladies with the name arlene. . dang. i don't know what i'm doing with my life but, i am happy, above all. weeks ago, i thought of dying/ killing myself to end it all. but i am still alive . i hope i can answer people's queries about my plans, i just can't tell them i should have died. see, i usually feel bad about my plans failing, that sucks. uhm? i just wish people always understand because i hate explaining myself. i don't deal with my problems by deciphering what went wrong instead i go for it, while waiting what is bound to be. still i never did it alone.

until now, i wish i did die. i am so selfish but you see dying is one of the best things! but i won't thanks to friends, and family. sometimes i just want to thank myself. because i always count on myself. i hate it i hate life. maybe, i really do not belong in this world, or i was born in the wrong century. i want my own "edward" -sole definition of perfection.

i love this. im so confused though. i heard that twilight would be on the big screen, so soon?

i just re-read my warfreak zone min friendster groups. that was me, i've changed though, i am a world peace advocate now. ha-ha and they suck though they can't even look at me in the eyes when i see them in school? like duhZ? whose the coward. assssH********* i forgot. i am a world peace advocate.

weellll geezz i missed this.