Friday, July 4, 2014

Entry: While Walking Down the Stairs

I have begun to understand that my life is not about earning money and becoming rich. Rather it is about getting to know the threshold of my capabilities- when do I get tired and when do I stop. It was tricky at first because there are so many standards to be based upon. I thought I can compare myself with other people but then again, a standard must be so perfect and nobody is perfect.

" I thought I can compare myself with other people but then again, standard must be so perfect and nobody is perfect"

So I created my own standard which has no boundaries but the measure of my body's strength. I will continue while I can and stop when I die. When things go rough in my case, I will convince myself not to complain and remember what my life is all about. Of course, this comes with trying to contribute efforts to make this place a better world to live in.


" It's not about me. It's a legacy. Its what you choose to leave behind for the future generations" - Iron Man

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Entry: On Wondering What Went Wrong

I fell in love with him when I heard him play the guitar. The strings let out a few notes. So slow. One string after the other. When he begun singing, I looked at him. That was the moment I gave my heart away . It was that simple, I guess. 

His voice dug deeper caves for me to seek solitude in a promise which never gave away truth. That song never seemed to have ended because it went on even after he went away and sang other songs to another girl.

It appears to be that I was that stupid to even have that  thought. My mind played tricks on me. I have made a fantasy, a story that was too good to be true. It was wrong to associate real-life men with those who I have found in books. What I have encountered was a mistake that has to be made and a risk that has to be taken. This is the problem with enthusiasts of the idea of love. It is the shithole that all hopeless romantics are stuck in. This is the reason why most of those like me are single. Well, the others are just lucky. I know I got caught in the midst of enjoying the euphoria. When it ended, I ate the scrapes like a scavenger, who waited for the restaurant to close and throw away the garbage. At first, I thought it was fun. But there were no more leftovers, there was nothing but self pity and self-loathing.

Last words: Everything turned out to be alright.


"We're all mad here. I'm mad, you're mad. " - Alice in Wonderland

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