IN PRISON

My interest on the principles behind imprisonment begun when I went there, for academic purposes. Indeed they are there to be disciplined. But when we talk about discipline, it is much more understood if we refer to children. How do we do this with grown-ups who committed crimes like murder, rape or theft for a mistake? Indeed, the discipline they render in prison is much more complicated but simple. Discipline is just for children but these people are disciplined to be reminded that like children when they do something wrong.

I met a few people there. They told me their crimes and the years they are serving there. I had a few sensible conversations but I cannot go away from the others who are deprived of their carnal desires for a long period of time. Inside I saw cut-outs of women in magazines posted on the walls. There were a lot of them.

Also, I did notice the way they act and think. They are brilliant people. Brilliance that is so overwhelming that committing a crime seemed right. But it was just a mistake. Unless it was repeatedly done then let them rot there.

Why am I talking about this? Because I realized that I have imprisoned myself in bitterness and self-loathing in the past years. I realized now that I do remember that person who was vibrant and full of life. Never scared and always moving forward. People used to hate me because I was loud and I did not care. Now nobody notices or sees me. Back in highschool I told myself that I will be a billionaire but it all faded to hopelessness and other things. I dug myself a grave to bury my real self. I even thought of really killing myself and guess what. In this world, it did not matter if I die. and I am not the person who gets satisfied with that.

 I am just so grateful of the divine being, who have been guiding me and all those who prayed for me. I will forever be indebted to you.

I am free.