WHAT I DID WHEN SOMEBODY TOUCHED ME- snail

i know one thing or two.
that is i am not foolish- so are you...

so,why then? do you torment me
with your ... stupidity
why do you stay.?
why do you hope?
in this time
after all the pain inflicted

inflict pain:to remove pain.
is wrong
it is the way i do
is it your way too?

i am so sorry then
if i cannot stay in your world.
and i have to live my life
i cannot feel my heart being broken
like a shattered piece of beauty.
like what yours is now.

goodbye.


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hola blog. today, im so free like free. i am happy. well. that is that. harr- so what do i talk about. yesterday, i was pissed off. by things that i wish not to talk about. so one of the good diversion talk to someone. voila! my guy. because Laura texted asking for details but of course I'll talk to her in personal na lang. one thing i have learned. is to stay put. just stay put because I'm the kind who makes sugod all the time. remember? and there's this ex-best friend-sister keryn whom i must not see in any case because either I'd run to her and say "hi!!!!!" or just ignore.

oh- then recently, i know how bad i could inflict pain to people around me. how? psychological. you cannot hurt people by crying, by saying curses, by hurting physically- better yet forget there existence and your life is better. and who cares if their lives are in whatever the condition is. right?

yes. i know i am best in running away. but that is because i want to make sure that i am the one that comes out beautifully. and that's what everybody should do. because pride is everything. tell me its not.

then here comes this person- who wants to penetrate my being, my comfort zone and i have allowed it. whatta- this is such a beautiful disaster. how come Korean actors are so cute?

"that's the second girl... she's sweet, she's sensitive- everything that he would like... his type. and i know that I'm not like that. so that's okay. I'm the first girl- and i was the one who let go. that's my edge."

good luck to me.