There has been so many changes in my mindset since I moved to Dubai. Its been just a week and my mind reprogrammed itself so many times. You see, my life is so comfortable back home. I have my own business, my own car and my own house. Because of the pandemic, my business closed and there was nothing else I can do. Mornings have no goals for me. After two years, I decided to explore the one thing I have been dreaming of in the past years- pack up and live in another country.These days, I can say that I am leaving the dream. Mornings meant the struggle to look for a job while preparing breakfast. Sleep meant until the wee hours of the morning just because I am now independent. I am now learning how to make a CV because I have been running our family business since I graduated. Tips on how to save money on food also occupy my mind.After sometime, I learned that there are so many Filipinos here. I am in awe that while this is an adventure for me it is a matter of survival for most people. They have uprooted their lives and had to be here to work. I am humbled and overwhelmed. My life in the Philippines is already good. That was why so many people asked why am I actually going to Dubai.My roommate is no different from most. She is so stingy. I am not a big spender but I seldom compare prices because I seldom buy stuff. For me expensive meant quality. As an effect of living with a stingy person, I also started depriving myself. Actually, I changed my mindset to the idea that I have no money now so I have to be cautious of how I spend. Luckily, I have a cousin living here and she is the most generous person on earth.Sadly, self deprivation is taking its toll on me. I am so tired. I realized that I have to stop apologizing for my situation. My comfortable life was because of my hard work which started early in my life. I have to enjoy my money too. Self-love meant spending on yourself and giving it proper attention like how you would to a lover and how you keep that lover. Stop living poor Arlene and buy yourself the furniture you need.