The Life of a Bum

I noticed that people seem to think that I am wasting my time bumming around. Pardon my freedom ladies and gentlemen. It is a choice to spend my time pondering on a lot of things and not act on them. For some people the subsequent option might be a better thing to do. I respect your choice but please do respect mine. I am an advocate of putting meaning in every little thing I do. This makes me satisfied for any outcome that might come out. This was what I have realized in the past years. There is no time wasted in this life. You just have to acknowledge that we all have different struggles. Nobody actually commits a mistake. Though we might stumble and fall, we might be kicked or buried by the circumstances of life but so be it. Dive in your misery and just savor the moments of excruciating pain. Love the moment you are in just know that you will survive. This will make you stronger.

In the past years I succumbed in the roller coaster of my emotional turmoil and I tried to choose between a lot of career options. This took more than a year to fight the demons who tempted me to go with the path of others because it seemed right. For some of those who claim to have known better, they tolf me I wasted a lot of time. At first I believed in everything they told me. I agreed that I have made the wrong decision of pushing the Pause button just so I can think for a while. They were wrong.

For years, I have managed to clear my mind. Know myself better and accept the circumstances of my being. I am perfect. I was created perfect. My journey in life is mine alone to decide on how I want to finish it. Others have their choices too. This realization made me notice the intricate patterns of learning. Instead of criticising the lives others chose to trek I begun to notice and learn from how they face their demons, how they draw their strengths from within them. Of course, our socio-economic status vary from many levels but choosing to love yourself is the right thing to do regardless of who you are.

I may have been a bum. But emptying my mind led me to what I really want. I will be a lawyer because it is the right place for someone who loves to read and talk and someone who wants to save the world. Having said that, I also realized that my future struggle will be facing the monsters of the real world. Knowing myself is the best sword and armor. Let me fight the battle with my hands.