WAITING FOR SIGN

I thought taking up Law will be a stepping stone to changing the world. Now, I am so confused. I think the Government is in a hopeless situation. Corruption already reached the bone marrows of this state, hence the blood they form is embedded with corruption which reaches to all the sides and corners of this nation. It makes me cringe at the idea that in law school we are taught of all the ideals in the legal world, knowing that when we graduate we will be tossed to serve as a meal to the lions. This frustration roots from the fact that I have met the very Gods of the knowledge of law trapped in the souls of my mentors. They teach us all the good things for what? I do not know. Am I the only one who lost hope on this nation?

Okay, I realized I was wrong in giving up. So I will try to fight. I am just scared because I have the tendency to fight drastically, I might get assassinated and die at a very young age. My conscience tells me that fear is what kept me still and frozen, I must learn to loosen up. Right? I must not give up and get disappointed easily with the failures of other people, who are in the position. I am here for a reason and so I will and I shall give the best while I have the chance.

I spent the afternoon with friends. Spent the lazy time sitting, eating, drinking coffee talking and playing with them gadgets they have. It felt like that time, I exhaled the air that I took in for the week.
Karine and Jo-anne vs. Kharissa and Mayrick in TAPTAP!
Gerlyn made libre! some tacos and nachos! yummy!!!
Laura and Angie came!

I chose my friends well. I love it

I am sad and confused. What is wrong? I want this but this is too much pressure. Too much. I do not know what I am doing, I feel so lost and all alone. There is noone there to help because they have their own problems. And yes, I know that I am complaining too much and I feel like I am the only one who has burden here. What is wrong with me?

PLAYING CHESS

Yes, I have found my place on earth. I found it here where I am right now.
I have never been so thankful in my life...

Live life like a chess player. Live life with simple rules.
1. Assess your opponent: assessing would include: learning behavior including strength and weakness
2. Create a strategy: how to start, how to attack and spend most time planning the element of surprise.
3. Survival Tactics: this part, we all have to discover ourselves. start with how others did it, how others failed in it and add it up together you are good!

So I tried it all. In the end everything is not about hard work. Think and act. I disagree with the second to the last statement. Hard work is the salt of life. The blood and the color of the universe.

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I am turning 22 in a few days.
I am losing weight.
I can see the hollows of my bones and I do not like it. Being underweight is indicative of low self-esteem. Something that is slipping like sand through my fingers.

Good night world. Today I  must prepare acting my dreams. Thank you God for sending me here.