Good Morning
These days we find ourselves in a reality that we never thought we'd ever be in. It feels painful. It feels depressing but people with very high self-esteems survive these times. I think I am one of them.See, there must be a certain intelligence in answering the questions: who am I? what do I do with my life? I have a few answers myself that I have carefully constructed on my mind- a few sentences maybe. And I know that they are not good. I hate the adult world.
I always think someday I will be this and that. But present reality shows that I might not be able to fulfill them all. Just sad. What is in being jobless? All the intelligence, pride and the rest behind it seems useless. I am not using them now. If I were in front of some psychologist I must ask how to deal with this. I hope she answers me with a job.
Let us start the day.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
A BOX OF REALIZATION
I believe in magic, in dreams coming true and in divine presence. I believe in shooting stars, fortune cards and all the things that dare say what is contained in the future...hayyy failed writing. I have nothing else on my mind.
(restart)
I am missing something and that is doing this- thinking. I am very busy right now and I have no idea how to let some of it pour. There are some things in realization that seem to overwhelm me- that is doing things on my own. In my new world of business, I came to respect what my mother is doing- helping other people. I love it now but this was never easy because money is a serious talk. It is just sad and exasperating that I have to face some things that are very very serious, like I could go to jail or someone can skip meals if I care less. I think this is the passion in this line of work- learning how to care.
When I meet people, who are engaged in my mother's business, I try to listen to their stories, convince that they may delay the payment dues or make them understand some adjustments in deals. And it is just amazing that I am good in talking. But then, all these comes with reality and a solid block of seriousness. I realized that I am obliged to stick to deals because I will meet them all again some time in the future. Indeed, we are all a part of a very big circle and nobody knows what it is.
My greatest realization would be, knowing that everyone matters and living with passion. Passion sometimes gets tired but we just have to take that regular break for us not to wear it down- like a battery that needs charging. See, everything/everyone matters. I wish other people see it too.
(restart)
I am missing something and that is doing this- thinking. I am very busy right now and I have no idea how to let some of it pour. There are some things in realization that seem to overwhelm me- that is doing things on my own. In my new world of business, I came to respect what my mother is doing- helping other people. I love it now but this was never easy because money is a serious talk. It is just sad and exasperating that I have to face some things that are very very serious, like I could go to jail or someone can skip meals if I care less. I think this is the passion in this line of work- learning how to care.
When I meet people, who are engaged in my mother's business, I try to listen to their stories, convince that they may delay the payment dues or make them understand some adjustments in deals. And it is just amazing that I am good in talking. But then, all these comes with reality and a solid block of seriousness. I realized that I am obliged to stick to deals because I will meet them all again some time in the future. Indeed, we are all a part of a very big circle and nobody knows what it is.
My greatest realization would be, knowing that everyone matters and living with passion. Passion sometimes gets tired but we just have to take that regular break for us not to wear it down- like a battery that needs charging. See, everything/everyone matters. I wish other people see it too.