*three reasons i want to do in this life- live, love, write
*five reasons i can no longer do what they want- life, dreams, passion, time, reasons, destiny
why i just cant stay there. why i remain misunderstood. because i have to stop explaining myself. i just have to show. and they would understand- after some time.
why i love him, her, them, why i cannot defend, prove... because i cannot find reasons. to prove to defend. thus, i stay. thank you.
a teacher died recently because his wife cheated. why did he commit suicide when his wife just bore a son last last month. why he did that. reasons-refused to be heard. try turning the world upside down- why did the wife cheat. when he loved her so. he was too hurt to know. isn't that enough. obviously she did not stop. he committed sin in suicide. was it his fault? that he loved her too deeply. she was life itself. it is not easy to kill. especially when it is yourself-the victim. why? i the eyes of the world. he became worthless. lucky was the woman. she was loved like that. she should've...
I'm quiet afraid. that in what i see in this life would stop me from living life. and what the world shows me. stops life from coming to me. here. i saw a lot of people a like. like children, like ants in scamper. all finding some reasons. all living a life. all having individual reasons.all living as one.
i remember the details that night lolo died. i remember the fear and adrenaline rush. i remember everything. I'm so sorry. it was so sad. must i still say that? and its so sad how others spend their lives. how others waste it. i hope they should've shared a bit to my lolo. then everyone should've been happy. I'm sorry for my selfishness. this is my own greed.
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